First Date

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A few weeks ago I went on my first "first date" in about 10 years.  I'm a bit out of the whole dating-game.  As we looked at each other across the table, each of us awkwardly clutching our drinks, I couldn't think of a single good conversation starter.  Each one felt stilted; I'd know this person for a few years, so the basics were out of the question.  I knew the number of siblings, the favorite food, their opinion on most sporting events.  But it just didn't feel right jumping into questions like their views on education reform or religious freedoms or political opinions.  Who wants to be that girl?  But as I looked into the most gorgeous blue eyes I'd ever seen, I felt myself wanting to know only one thing, asking the same question I had almost two years ago when I first held this beautiful little girl in my arms: "Who are you, little one?"

A month away from her second birthday and I still don't know.  You would think that as a Stay-At-Home-Mom I would know my children to their very cores by now.  But now that Matty has started preschool, Peyton and I have uninterrupted one on one time for the first time.  With my firstborn, getting to know him seemed easy.  We had hours upon hours of time to play, to read, to laugh... but this little one always seems to get the shaft.  She's never talked much; she never needed to.  Not that she seemed to mind.  She'd follow her brother to the ends of the earth and beyond.  She loves Legos and trains and bikes and balls.  And I love that.  But what else does she like?  What does she do and think that is unique only to her?

Our second date is today.  Maybe I'll learn a little bit more.  And I'm pretty confident we'll have a third.  And I can't wait.  Maybe we'll take a walk or have a tea party or build an intricate train track - but it will be her choice.  I can't wait to discover over the years who Peyton Grace is.  Because this little girl could change the world, and I want to be able to say I knew her when.




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  1. UnknownFebruary 21, 2021 at 11:53 PM

    I love this so much. And I can't wait to go on a date with either of these two amazing girls:)

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